So yesterday morning, I awoke to find myself reflecting on all that's gone on this past year, both good and bad. Friends whom I've gained and lost. Then, spirit reminded me that I attract like-minded individuals at every step/turn of my journey with regards to my intent. I also wanted to add that as I reflected on parts of my journey, I felt hurt and used. Then, once again--spirit's voice rang thru like this: "did you not use them as well? You expected this/these individual(s) to fill-in a void that only you can fill--is that not using them as well?" Wow, I never looked at it that way--KARMA. Yes, it was true. They may have used me but I wasn't any better because, in turn, I used them and failed in my attempt to fill the void. So, yes--I'll admit it, I tricked someone for my own treat and I wasn't any better than the next person whom I was accusing of using me. After all, we get what we give. Naturally, when I realized what I'd done, I immediately said to myself "that's what you get." Before I could do any further self-sabotage, I called on spirit to guide me on what to do next. Spirit guided and reminded me to go back to my mantra: "things aren't always as they appear; things happen for a reason" and I've met these individuals so I can better understand myself. During my clearing and grounding exercises, I felt a calmness wash over me--this is where forgiveness stepped in and released me from the bonds I've placed upon myself. In a different consciousness, on a different level, I focused on sending my loving and forgiving energy inward and to those whom "wronged" me; after all, I'd wrong them too.
Through my higher self/my soul, I was able to stop obsessing about such situations and I let go. At that same level, I was able to say and do what I needed to release--any unwanted, burdensome energy and move on. Note to self: There's nothing you can do if others choose not to move on--you can only do and give your best.
I've accepted the fact that people will judge me, however, it is my choice whether or not I need them in my life. I only need positive thoughts, people and situations in my life. Love me, but don't judge me.
Till next week, I bid you all love, light & compassion.