Since I began my journey 6 years ago, my life has changed...FOR THE BETTER and it continues to KEEP GETTING BETTER...BUT, not so long ago, my life wasn't all that great until...I decided to be happy, to change my life, to love myself and allow myself to receive the very best that life has to offer. So here's my story...
I was the type of person who would over-think, worry and fret over the smallest details and almost always asked myself "what if?" to the point of insanity! (for those of you who can relate, you know the deal and the drill) Till one day during this journey of life, I decided to myself, "You know what, self, I deserve to be happy, I deserve to be worry-free!" What I did next came to a surprise to me and I know that God was working through me...I decided to follow my instincts, but I found myself following the same pattern of over-thinking, so I decided to lean on God and His angels ("His" is used for the sake of staying consistent not because I identify God as masculine). I said, "Alright, God, show me the next right easy step to take so I can be at peace."
Now mind you, this has been a journey ever since and I've relied upon fervent prayer, which only came when I finally trusted in God and trusted in myself to ask solely for what I wanted. So here are the first steps I took to self-improvement:
1. I knew I wanted change, but I didn't know where to start. So I silenced my mind and asked my soul what was it I needed to change first.
2. Then, while in this silence, I looked for the repetitive message, which was the easiest and tangible sign for me. So ask God for a sign only you can recognize. For example, the repetitive message that came through was "love me more" - so I went with that.
3. Next I paid attention to how my body felt and immediately acted on it. I realized that part of loving oneself is to be kind and show the same kindness we do to strangers to ourselves. At first, I felt funny but my heart and soul were both telling me to move forth and that I was on the right path. Indeed, I did and I'm glad I did, because of this, I've learned to become more compassionate to myself as well as to others.
4. Finally, practice makes perfect. I asked myself "why is it I am so good at certain things?" The answer came - I had years of training and the only way for a beginner or a student to be a master is to master their own skill set. I realized that I needed to apply the same mindset of having to practice daily as to be consistent. That this was the way to master my life.
So as all of you can see, I'm a work in progress, I remain open to learning new things and I just keep going with the ebb and flow of life - which is what makes this life interesting and worthwhile - I am living.Some days it's easy and other days it isn't the key is to keep on going, never giving up (even if you feel like you want to) and choosing to be happy amidst all of the bullshit going on around you.
Till next time, I bid you all love, light and compassion.