On August 28, 2009, Chris and his 3 loved ones were taken from us. These past 2 years have led me to this interesting journey with you beautiful people. You see, Chris was my rock. He loved me and saw me thru everything. Losing him was the toughest thing in my life. I contemplated suicide because it was agony living on Earth without him. It wasn't until a few months after his death, I'd cleaned up my act and started prioritizing my life. I realized then and now, I still have people who love me--I have my son--he's my life, I knew I had to stay alive for him. I have my parents who are also my life AND my rock, I knew I had to stay alive for them as well.
I went thru periods of time where I cried until there were no tears left; I hated Chris for abandoning me and I hated myself for letting him go. I know this much, everything happens for a reason, whether we like it or not, but in the end--it strengthens your will to live. My old life died with Chris; and my new life began with my loved ones. I realized that Chris' death was a blessing in disguise for me, I found my way back to God; I learned to love myself again; and I learned how much control I had over my life. I also realized that Chris died doing what he loved; and that I should follow suit too, meaning I needed to make changes in my life. I realized just how short life is and that nothing is ever too late, gone or lost forever. That is when I decided to write my first memoir--which is now complete and I pray each day that I land a literary agent who will best represent me and my book! I'm also using my healing and intuitive abilities to help others. I may not be financially rich (yet); but my experiences make me the wealthiest woman on earth. I love life and thank God & Chris for guiding me "into the light." Thanks to my loved ones--I wouldn't have made it this far w/out you guys!
You're gone but never forgotten, RIP Mahala, Mark & Cleofe.
Chris - you were taken from us, but my time with you was the sweetest, Sweetums. It's not goodbye--more like see you later...I love and miss you. RIP CL.
Love, light & blessings,
Maria
I went thru periods of time where I cried until there were no tears left; I hated Chris for abandoning me and I hated myself for letting him go. I know this much, everything happens for a reason, whether we like it or not, but in the end--it strengthens your will to live. My old life died with Chris; and my new life began with my loved ones. I realized that Chris' death was a blessing in disguise for me, I found my way back to God; I learned to love myself again; and I learned how much control I had over my life. I also realized that Chris died doing what he loved; and that I should follow suit too, meaning I needed to make changes in my life. I realized just how short life is and that nothing is ever too late, gone or lost forever. That is when I decided to write my first memoir--which is now complete and I pray each day that I land a literary agent who will best represent me and my book! I'm also using my healing and intuitive abilities to help others. I may not be financially rich (yet); but my experiences make me the wealthiest woman on earth. I love life and thank God & Chris for guiding me "into the light." Thanks to my loved ones--I wouldn't have made it this far w/out you guys!
You're gone but never forgotten, RIP Mahala, Mark & Cleofe.
Chris - you were taken from us, but my time with you was the sweetest, Sweetums. It's not goodbye--more like see you later...I love and miss you. RIP CL.
Love, light & blessings,
Maria
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