I went thru periods of time where I cried until there were no tears left; I hated Chris for abandoning me and I hated myself for letting him go. I know this much, everything happens for a reason, whether we like it or not, but in the end--it strengthens your will to live. My old life died with Chris; and my new life began with my loved ones. I realized that Chris' death was a blessing in disguise for me, I found my way back to God; I learned to love myself again; and I learned how much control I had over my life. I also realized that Chris died doing what he loved; and that I should follow suit too, meaning I needed to make changes in my life. I realized just how short life is and that nothing is ever too late, gone or lost forever. That is when I decided to write my first memoir--which is now complete and I pray each day that I land a literary agent who will best represent me and my book! I'm also using my healing and intuitive abilities to help others. I may not be financially rich (yet); but my experiences make me the wealthiest woman on earth. I love life and thank God & Chris for guiding me "into the light." Thanks to my loved ones--I wouldn't have made it this far w/out you guys!
You're gone but never forgotten, RIP Mahala, Mark & Cleofe.
Chris - you were taken from us, but my time with you was the sweetest, Sweetums. It's not goodbye--more like see you later...I love and miss you. RIP CL.
Love, light & blessings,