...That's for sure.  The turn of events, things happening for a reason and seeing those blessings in disguise makes it  all worthwhile.  A week ago, I had writer's block and was only able to write small pieces at a time; to top it all off, I had a meltdown over something so menial. 

I kept writing what appeared to be junk, I just kept berating myself into the ground, until I heard a voice deep within me advising me to "let go, stop fighting change, to go with the ebb and flow of life...that my prayers were already heard and answered...not to worry about how things are going to happen, that they just will."  I just had to be patient with myself; and stop worrying myself sick.  This past week was definitely a test of my faith; faith in myself.  Yes, I wallowed in self-pity and what seemed to be an abyss of my own making.  What brought me back was talking to my dad and how he always seems to make me laugh in any situation I've gotten myself into. 

I was also reminded to love myself constantly, consistently in any situation.  I needed to stop and smell the roses, which I had forgotten to do, as I was focused in executing each tasks that I'd not noticed all of the messages and hints that were already present.

I saw the light at the end of the tunnel and I knew, this time, it wasn't comin' at me.  LOL!!!!  I learned to finally just let go...So, this week, My Loves, I'M BACK!!!!  Till next week, I bid you all Love, Light & Compassion.

~Maria

Wow.  This week has been rough on me.  I'm so glad it is over.  All I know is this too shall pass.  Without getting into too much details, let's just say don't take it personal...it's been one of those weeks. 

I don't know why Sheryl Crow's song keeps playing over and over in my head.  All I know is this, expect the unexpected, love AND live every moment and embrace it, DON'T. FIGHT. CHANGE.  Make sense? 

Anyway, I've been living in the moment all this week by breaking out of routine and just having fun.  Next week, I get back to the grind, focus and completion of tasks.  So have fun, eat, drink & be merry, My Loves.  Have a great week!  Till next week, I bid you all Love, Light & Compassion!

~Maria

Dear Mommy,

Happy Mother's Day sa 'yo!  Kamusta na?  Kamusta naman kayo ni Daddy?  Miss na miss ko na kayo!  Sana'y nasa mabuti kayong kalagayan at karamdaman lalong lalo na sa sobrang init na panahon ngayon sa 'Pinas.    Sana nandiyan ako ngayon para-makapiling kayo at mag-saya sa kaarawan nating mga ina.  Tuwing naalala ko ang ating makulay na nagdaan, siyempre may oras na natatawa ako, na-iiyak, nagagalit o kaya nanggigigil.  HAHAHAHA!  Alam niyo nang ibig kong sabihin!  Buhat noong ako'y limang taon pa lang hanggang sampong taon, ibig kong lagi tayong tatlong magkasama, hindi ako maka-bitiw sa 'yong mga kamay.  Pero noon pa man, unti-unting lumalabas ang, 'eka nga, mga sungay ko...lahat ng payo niyo sa 'kin noon ay siyang sinasaway ko. Habang pinipilit ninyo akong ituwid, siya nama'y pilit kong iguhit ang aking daan.  Pero, kahit papaano, minahal niyo ako higit pa sa taos puso.

Noong ako'y naman 11 years old hanggang 18 years, ay naku, para bang kay tagal ng panahon bago niyo akong pabayaang mamuhay ng mag-isa.  Ang parati niyong sinasabi sa 'kin noon, "anak, 'gaya ka ng ibon, may pak-pak ka pero hindi mo pang kayang lumipad mag-isa!"  Shieeeeetttt!  Ano ba 'yan?!  Sa awa ng diyos at sa pag-darasal ko, noong 24 years old na ako, salamat sa Diyos--sa wakas, umuwi na rin kayo ng Pinas!  Sorry pero noong panahon na 'yon, talagang napaka-ligaya ko dahil sa hindi na kayo makikialam sa pamumuhay naming mag-ina!  Take note ha, noong ako'y naging trenta años, hinihanap-hanap kita/kayo.  Doon ako na-iyak ng usto.  Tutoo nga LAHAT ng sinasabi niyo sa 'kin, lahat ng payo at leksyon niyo---tutoo!!!  Minsan, na-mi-miss ko ang pag-sermon niyo sa 'kin.  Na nahuhuli ko matanong-tanong sa sarili na "ano kaya ang gagawin ni Mommy kung siya'y napalagay sa situasyon ko?"  Malaking impluensiya niyo sa 'king buhay--kahit na noong akala'y niyong itinakwil ko kayo.

NGAYON, nandito pa rin kayo kasakasama ko sa bago kong landas, wala na akong kailangan higit pa sa pagsusubay niyo sa 'kin at siyang pinasasalamatan ko sa Mahal na Panginoon.  Mahal na mahal ko kayo at higit pa sa lahat, MALIGAYA NA AKO NGAYON! Tagumpay sa inyo, mga mahal ko sa buhay.  So, wag na kayong mainip o malungkot--sandali na lang at nandiyan ako muli. 

Ang Inyong Nagmamahal na anak,
Maritess

Life is a mirror; which is more reason to be careful what you wish for and keep positive thoughts and company.  Remember, everything—rather, every emotion we feel for someone, is a mirror of someone’s feeling for us and vice versa.  Don’t think for one second, that you’re the only one feeling the way you do.  Someone is feeling the same way about you, but you just haven’t noticed it…yet.  That’s the divinity of love.  You can’t make someone feel the same way you do, but you can understand what it is like to love and be loved.   Till next week, I bid you all love, light and compassion.

~Maria